I had had  such a great week, yesterday I weighed 144 lbs. Which means I would have lost 4.4 lbs. this week, which is huge! considering the only other time I lost that much in  a week was months ago. So I decided to let myself have a cheat day,

I had;

2 1/2 pizza hut cheese sticks

a rice krispies treat bar

an open faced hot turkey sandwich from three lyons pub

and some pistachios

and this morning I weighed 147 lbs. I gained

3 MOTHERFUCKING POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously almost cried with how disappointed I was. 

I basically undid all of my progress for this week and fucked up my goal of being 145 lbs by wednesday.

and I even worked out yesterday, I ran further and faster than I have before, I was so proud of myself and this morning just killed my mentality for the day.

#fat  #sad  #fuck up  #bad  #do it better bitch